adarkeninglight

I wish I knew the meaning of strength. Forgiving and forgetting requires a measure I have never possessed; holding onto this will burn me even as I set the fire around your feet. I was banished from you before I learnt how to let go. I cry in the dark and you will never hear it. Bastard. Bastard. I still love you.

Let it go. I don't like those words. They don't come easily to me. Grab on, I scream. Grab on and hold on and hold Tight, to the end. Never give up. Quitters never win And I - I have to win. I play games with you in my head. You don't realise. You never have.

Scars. We all have them Running deep Shallow Like light In those hard to find places. Tell Me what happens When it happens When you bleed And the world sees you For as you really Are. A Wound Deep inside. Too big to leave a scar Ruler straight mark Across the Heart. Maybe You'll never notice That I Am not like you I live in Hope. This Is what I learn. Hope Will kill you Hope Can't save you. You can't Bleed out when You're already Dead Inside.

Screw the music. Sod the stupid written love. They know nothing. Just words, all of it, words. Words don't mean shit. I love you can easily become I hate you. Promises come out as bubbles and fade just as soon. You can't tell me what this pain is like, because it's just words you're speaking. Give me your sound, your emotion, your raw cry and maybe I will understand. Give me a word and I will walk away.

Our pain is sweet but never short We live in fear of getting caught A sharpened knife is our best friend We count the days until the end. Red rule lines across our arms We won’t protect ourselves from harm We won’t, you see, for we are they The ones who’ve found a way to stray Off the path and into dark Another cut, another mark Memories like indelible ink We have brought ourselves to the brink Of life and death, of earth and sky Please ask yourselves: What am I? The answer: SELF HARMER.

The wind may howl in silent streams The earth may sleep in distant dreams But you, my dove, are here in peace We love together, rest in ease When seas pull back the endless tide And creatures small do run and hide We stand together, hand in hand Watch water ravage broken lands Fires may spill from open wounds Our baby turns within the womb When ash rains down in flaking heat His heart will beat, and beat, and beat. The moon will sink below the skies Our bones beneath the earth will lie Our line survives, both strong and true For you loved me, and I loved you.

Surround yourself with nettles. Like lovers, their sting Lies in their gentlest touch. Be not afraid To caress them, cherish them.         Seize their roots, Pull them gently skywards. A life in soil is not for them. Speak not a single word 'Less death should drop from lips       Once red; now pale In the agony of silence. Linger among them. After all, they are Your oldest friends.         You have, and will, Spend years with them. Allow your hopes to flourish As you crush stems and Strip away fibres.         Roll them between ruined fingers Suffer silently. When cords of discomfort Lie about you Then may you begin